I would have told you this earlier, but I just wanted the dust to settle a bit first. I haven't even told my frends yet.
GB and I have decided to split up.
Late last year, and this year, we started talking about our goals for the future. GB has just started a new job this year, and has many big decisions and changes to go through on this new career path. It's exciting, and it's very promising, so I am happy for him.But you know what that entails? We talked about it and it means that he is very unlikely to be able to settle down (get married) for the next 3 to 5 years.
GB is a good guy. He's very trustworthy, truthful, kind, intelligent, generous and is such a gentleman. And some day, he will be ready to settle down and start a family. Although I have enjoyed the last 5 months being his partner, and sharing so many things with him, I cannot see myself waiting 3 to 5 years to settle down and start a family with him.
It's not a matter of patience, or "good things come with time".... it's a matter of the heart. I feel I am ready for this whole new chapter of my life, and I want to find someone who feels the same too. And that someone will be the right person for me.
I also have a gut feeling that even after 3 or 5 years, he will not be ready to settle down with me... maybe I am just not the right one for him.
But the bottom line is, I am not willing to wait that minimum of 3 years. I don't want to hang on to this relationship... only to find myself resenting him after a year or so, because he is holding me back from the life I so desire.
I also don't want to end up marrying him sooner than he is ready for it (because of circumstance or manipulation or pressure)... because all that is not what marriage is about. Marriage and family is not just a tick in the box.
When GB thinks of marriage, he thinks it is something he will eventually one day end up doing, he thinks entrapment, he thinks of kids who will burden him for the next 20 years, he thinks of a lifestyle change which he is not prepared for.
When I think of marriage, I think of love. A happy, fulfiling and powerful kind of love. I think of giving (and in turn receiving) unparallelled comfort, happiness and such promise for the future together.
It has got to feel right. And to feel right, you not only need the right person... but you also need to meet this person at that right time. As great a catch as GB is, he is not the right one for me, and I am not the right one for him.
I know some of you will criticise me for my decision. Perhaps some of you are even laughing and gloating. You are how you are... nothing I do will ever change your opinion of me.
But for those readers who have always been supportive, and been on my side through good times and bad... I just want to say- do not worry. I've been though much worse disappointments in life. I always come out of it ok. And I still believe in love. Perhaps more than ever.
x
holly jean
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I've been invited to the ultimate fashion bazaar happening this weekend. It's called SHOP. It's a concept similar to Shecky’s “Girls Night Out’ events taking place all over the United States from New York to Los Angeles.
You can check out their event page on facebook.
Do you want to go ???
WHERE? Customs House Pavilion (Next to Fullerton Bay Hotel)
WHEN? Saturday, 29 January 2010, 1-6pm
WHERE? Customs House Pavilion (Next to Fullerton Bay Hotel)
WHEN? Saturday, 29 January 2010, 1-6pm
Tickets? $20 if you book now from HEATbranding , or $30 at the door
Email shop@heatbranding.com or call (65) 6648 4315 for enquiries
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1) Exclusive access to closed door sales (up to 70% off)
2) A goodie bag worth $200 !!!!!!!!!! ( will show you what's in my goodie bag when I go next weekend!!)
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4) Free makeovers by Toni&Guy and other beauty partners
5) Free entry and complimentary drinks at SHOP’s official afterparty @ Stereolab for you and two friends!
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p/s- If you're sad and single, stop feeling sorry for yourself! Go read my newest article - January is Break Up Month.
P/s - to the girl who suggested getting Nizoral 2% from the pharmacy... If you were here right now, I'd kiss you! No more dandruff!!! Finally!! :) (Thank you)
P/s 2 - Going to Green Hornet Premier tonight... wearing my new dress (show u pics soon!)
Comments
Its hard to leave anyone we care for. But when push come to shove, we have to do something and not just be in a relationship cos we are comfortable.
Kudos to you Holly =)
Many would have dragged on and become unhappy. I hope you find your guy soon
hope you're coping fine babe. totally understand what you mean, and i'm sure mr right will pop by really soon!
One day, you'll find the right one! Someone who'll love you and be willing to settle down with you.
Until then, feel the love from your readers! Cheers!
Been reading your blog for sometime. I'm so glad you still have faith in finding the right person. I remember when I was single for a while, I use to wonder how I'd ever meet the ultimate ONE for you in a world so big.. But I did - and I realise that, when you least expect it and seek for it, it will come your way!
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C
I'm glad u seem to be taking it quite ok Holly... U will do just fine and i totally understand your reasons.
until then, love life as usual! hope to see you at the ettusais' meet up soon! (will probably be the last one with you girls!) take care!
ps- hope lola is doing fine too! (:
I agree with you about not wasting both parties time. Each of you might be a good person but just the wrong piece of a puzzle for each other.
People who will criticize you just for moving on, obviously has no idea how a real relationship works in the real world. Not all relationship ends because of some earth shattering, dramatic climax. I think more people should learn how to let go of things if it isn't working out; have seen too many unhealthy relationships that are just limping along.
It appears that you parted ways with GB amicably.
There is wisdom in your decision.
By this time in your life you know the difference between Mr. Rightnow, and Mr. Right.
Wishing and praying for you!
GB is good... but there's better days... gd luck, take gd care... im sure u will...
D-GUY.
I think you are really brave to make such decision.
Yup, i understand how you feel and a person like you will surely find true love soon.
Be strong!
Big hugs..
you've always come across to me as someone who knows what she wants and works towards it .. ... I admire the courage it must have took for you to make such a decision. I hope things turn out well for you. *hugs*
You make me think alot after reading wat happened to u.
Yes i knw it hurts bad, but not everyone can b as brave as u. You are indeed 1 woman who knws wat u want in life. And i wana be the same. As much as it hurts, we cant let emotion overcome facts.
Pick yrself up ea time you fall. The road ahead of you has something beautiful awaits you : )
Hugs
You make me think alot after reading wat happened to u.
Yes i knw it hurts bad, but not everyone can b as brave as u. You are indeed 1 woman who knws wat u want in life. And i wana be the same. As much as it hurts, we cant let emotion overcome facts.
Pick yrself up ea time you fall. The road ahead of you has something beautiful awaits you : )
Hugs
I can understand how you feel. Yup, continue to believe in love. That's the way! :D
Hugs
i have shared my experiences with dragging relationships in ur "Karma" post.
this will pass, the road will be clearer in the future.
cheers
If you do interesting things, are able to be along and happy (independent) men will then find you more interesting and desirable.
Take a deep breath.
Good luck Holly