We had a swim instead, and because the idiot in me didn't want to wet her hair (which got wet in the end anyway!), I did about 4 laps (short ones, this wasn't a lap pool) doing breast stroke, with my head out of the water. My body must not be used to this stroke...cos today my neck hurts!
Then after his calls, we had dinner, and that was it. Nice day.
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Remember me mentioning that I received Facebook msgs from a girl who claimed to be sleeping with and dating "A"? Turns out, A was telling the truth after all... he has never met this girl in the flesh, and she's actually linked to me in more ways than one. Loong story but she knows my ex ex (No, not Mark), and my friend I went to Bali with has been out with her before (platonic though cos they both love football) and she told him shitty things about me too.
What was she thinking? That if she bad mouths me, men don't have brains for themselves to see how I really am around them and will just believe her? Or that if she makes up a vicious lie about sleeping with a guy I am interested to start dating, that I will just drop him like a hot potato (without prior sleuthing) and so she can get my dregs? (I saw ur real facebook pic honey... my advice is, aim a little lower)
reowww *clawing action* ( I am only kidding. You can aim for whoever you want, it is not my place to judge you. But don't stoop to such means... What have I ever done to you to deserve you bad mouthing me to every man who even mentions my name? Or worse still, tell me such a damaging lie that made me mistrust someone I like)
Of course I won't name and shame here. I don't think it's right, and I would only do that in extreme extreme circumstances.... if people really cross me. But wot a Nutter! Thanks for smearing shit on my first experiences with "A".
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Someone commented yesterday that I was spotted holding hands with someone. Yes, that was "A". Is it exclusive yet?? I don't know... we need to know each other a little better. And I need to get the whole not trusting him episode out of my system too. Which for me is damn hard.
So yes, up to this point I have been keeping my options open because of Nutter and her cans of shit, and because I don't know "A" well. But I hurt someone yesterday, because I had been keeping my options open. And for that I am sorry (though I know sorry doesn't fix the hurt I caused). What was I thinking, that just saying things weren't exclusive was enough to not hurt people's hearts. I hope I don't have to do this selection process thing ever again. I am a rubber ball... I bounce... but sometimes I forget that there are people out there whose hearts are made of porcelain. I'm sorry I could not protect your heart.
Valuable lesson I've learnt, you need to protect your own.
Although I'm going to take things slow with "A", I'm closing off all other options, will see how this progresses.
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And stop sending me emails about this Cullen guy suppossedly a player from Stand Chart. I have never been out with him, don't know him. But thank you for your concern and for always looking out for me :)
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@anon12.39- ClotheSmith on boat quay. I think it was $1700 for the 2 pc suit, cos he chose wool. I think other fabrics will be cheaper. The shirt is 100plus (cotton).
@Deb- yeah i know... yes :s
@LL - oh I didn't know that.
@MissPiggy... ah.. u again :) u caused quite a stir u know, when u announced in the comments tht you saw me holding hands with a guy . haha. But all is good... at least I'm on track now... might not be the right track.. but time will tell and I will figure things out slowly I guess. Nah.. wasn't wierd holding hands,holding his hand made me feel secure.
HJ, i assume tis 'A' has no baggage? Take it slow, have fun & enj every moment you can with him. We nvr knw if it will eventually work out or not but wat te hack! its a wonderful thing to love & to be loved!!
Im so full of envy : )