Wednesday, September 09, 2009

My ettusais Photo shoot and personal training

It's been one week since the split.

Mark leaves for Phuket today (maybe gone this morning, not sure), he's playing golf with his best friend (another Mark) for a few days.

He suggested lunch when he gets back... on Sunday. I don't know. Is it a good idea? Am I ready for it? I'd say no, because I'm still missing him, so it would only be an ordeal for me to meet him for lunch as just friends... after all that we've been through.

I've been doing well keeping myself busy.

Yesterday I did a shoot for Ettusais. It was good fun.

Look out for it in November's CLEO mag.
You know the past few days I've been feeling skinny. I know I'm not fat, but I've been feeling skinny...like a bag of bones... deflated. Feels like a whole short circuit and all the energy has been drawn from me, leaving me limp.

That makes it especially hard to go about my day and do things with a cheery smile as if I don't have a care in the world.

I think it's because of the stress of the break up... and that my routine (you know cooking dinners, going gym, swimming, etc) has been broken. I used to do all that with my partner (not complaining, I enjoyed it)... and now it's like I got to build a whole new routine on my own.
Starting to lose my tan, and energy. So today I got a personal trainer and had my first gym session since the break up.
I like my trainer, good mix of fun and seriousness. Best part is... I feel the effects. Whoohoo! Maybe I can just concentrate on my body for a while... finally get those 6 pecs kicking in... *fingers crossed* . So I've signed for 10 sessions starting this Friday... for those interested in exercise and getting in shape, I'll update you about it later on.

I've also got to figure out how I can get swimming back into my schedule.

Tomorrow afternoon, I'm going to hang at my friend J's new gourmet ice-cream shop, it's been open about a year but I never made the effort to go down. Think it will be a nice treat! Will blog from there tomorrow.

Also got to share news with you about disappearing man! Yes, he has contacted me out of the blue upon reading about my break up. But don't worry, I'm not stupid. Definitely not looking to hook up with him. I know what kind of a guy he is based on his past with me. More updates tomorrow!
Just realised today's date is 09-09-09!

18 comments:

  1. Hi Holly! Which gym did you join?! I was contemplating getting a PT and joining a gym the other day. And after much consideration, I joined pure yoga instead! Less pushy, no hard sell. Love it! Hope you achieve your fitness goals! ;)

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  2. celestina3:05 pm

    Holly
    U look great even after 1 wk of break up!! well done gal : ) i actually looked worse than ghost during my last break up : (

    I could see u are really keepg yrself bizi & occupied! Keep it up!

    hmm.. abt te lunch wif Mark, i do agreed wif u perhaps u stay low for awhile after all its te healing period now. Meeting up too soon could stir up some emotional struggles. So it all depends how strong one could be

    U hv been doing well gal : )

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  3. celestina3:05 pm

    Holly
    U look great even after 1 wk of break up!! well done gal : ) i actually looked worse than ghost during my last break up : (

    I could see u are really keepg yrself bizi & occupied! Keep it up!

    hmm.. abt te lunch wif Mark, i do agreed wif u perhaps u stay low for awhile after all its te healing period now. Meeting up too soon could stir up some emotional struggles. So it all depends how strong one could be

    U hv been doing well gal : )

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  4. Anonymous3:05 pm

    Re: lunch. Bad idea Holls. Best to sever contact for a few months, and then it might be possible to be "just friends". But if you do it too soon then it's just going to be harder to move on... know what I mean?

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  5. Anonymous3:29 pm

    wow..holly..ur figure is looking fantastic in that top...looking great

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  6. Holly,
    You seem like a nice girl.

    Now the worst thing to do is to meet up an ex soon after a breakup. The word is defenestrate, or to throw a person out of the window.

    Since it's already decided and all broken up, I'm assuming you two will maintain the status quo, no matter how difficult.

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  7. Theresa- Boxfitness. Cos actually I wanna learn boxing. so might as wel get together with a gym as well.

    Everyone else- thanks for the advice. I know tht i'm not totally over him, but I do want to see him... and yet i know it will hurt inside when I do. It's like a tug of war between my head and heart now.

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  8. i actually disagree with the above comments and think you should lunch with him again. maybe cancel next week and you set one up the week after.

    no point cutting off a good ex with an amiable breakup.

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  9. Anonymous7:13 pm

    Hi Holly,

    I'm an asian chinese gal and I had dated a white guy before.(He's from England) During the phase when we had broken up, we are still friends as we did not end up in a nasty way. After the break up, he asked me out for movies, meal...etc you name it. So to white men, they can even still be friends with their ex wife/ex gf but it does not apply to asian guys from my experiences.(no offence to asian guys)

    My ex initiated the break up and I was devastated.I was still not over him YET and when he asked me out after few weeks of the break-up, I agreed without hesitation. I can say it was a mistake as I let my emotion run over me. It's not a great idea to meet up your ex even for a meal after a week of breakup, you can do so if you are REALLY OVER HIM. And you can only be friends with your ex if you are over him also.

    I have been through this plight few months ago so the feeling is still rather fresh to me so I can truly understand how you feel now.

    Somehow when I read your blog regarding Mark, it reminded me of my ex. I'm not sure but it seemed they have some kind of similarities between them.

    You mentioned that in the day when you are busy, you did not have the time to think about your relationship but when come to bedtime, the loneliness set in and that's when you start to miss him, miss his smell etc. It's applied to me also. Just remember you are not alone !

    P.S: Love to read your blog anyway!Keep it up!

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  10. Anonymous7:13 pm

    Hi Holly,

    I'm an asian chinese gal and I had dated a white guy before.(He's from England) During the phase when we had broken up, we are still friends as we did not end up in a nasty way. After the break up, he asked me out for movies, meal...etc you name it. So to white men, they can even still be friends with their ex wife/ex gf but it does not apply to asian guys from my experiences.(no offence to asian guys)

    My ex initiated the break up and I was devastated.I was still not over him YET and when he asked me out after few weeks of the break-up, I agreed without hesitation. I can say it was a mistake as I let my emotion run over me. It's not a great idea to meet up your ex even for a meal after a week of breakup, you can do so if you are REALLY OVER HIM. And you can only be friends with your ex if you are over him also.

    I have been through this plight few months ago so the feeling is still rather fresh to me so I can truly understand how you feel now.

    Somehow when I read your blog regarding Mark, it reminded me of my ex. I'm not sure but it seemed they have some kind of similarities between them.

    You mentioned that in the day when you are busy, you did not have the time to think about your relationship but when come to bedtime, the loneliness set in and that's when you start to miss him, miss his smell etc. It's applied to me also. Just remember you are not alone !

    P.S: Love to read your blog anyway!Keep it up!

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  11. Anonymous7:18 pm

    Cont'd

    On a lighter note, I have been reading your blog and noticed that there are some similarites between us. I'm Libran too. I like guy with good English too. I like to do things fast in one swap but not slowly.LOL!

    Maybe that's explain our same horoscope.

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  12. Anonymous7:50 pm

    hey jean babe,

    its wonderful dat ur doing great with all those regime, keeping ur mind bz, keeping ur body healthy, dats should be the way..
    well, in point of view, if ur still scarred from the recent incident, i gues its beta to leave it dat way and not to see him for lunch.. u can see ME!
    yeah, rite..dream on smileydude..
    heehee..*just kiddin'*
    Im so sorry i cant vote for you as im surfing net at work and they have restricted access to social networking, like u noe, facebook,twitter,tagged blah blah blah..hope u understand..see u around..
    last but not least, u look great in ur pics! lurv 'em..byee!

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  13. Dear Holly,

    I'm sorry to hear about your breakup. Give it time for the whole thing to cool off and I'm sure you can still be friends even if you can't be lovers.

    I'm a mom with kids and married for seven years. My husband and I did break up for some time while we were dating, we cooled off, dated some others and in the end we still got back together. I'm one who always maintain contact with my ex-es, we still maintain contact and I got to meet their wives or gfs.

    Another thing I should mention is that there is no one perfect guy out there waiting for you, it's how the both of you strive together to make it work.

    All the best to you gal and take care. :)

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  14. Michelle10:42 pm

    I am not sure if I can ask what's the bra u are wearing under the singlet. It seems to give a good shape/ lift to boobs.

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  15. OH MY GOD THE DISAPPEARING MAN ISN'T DEAD!!!
    That rules out one of your possibilities as dictated by the old blog post. Unless it's really the ghost of relationships past a'knocking, but I always think of ghosts as not having functioning opposable thumbs, so they can't hold pens and type stuff on their Macs and shit.
    Anyways. Feel better! :)
    Love + pat on the back

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  16. U looks so great alreadY!!?!!! xD

    to me ur actually starting to have plans for urself now? so its good news? Following ur heart at times..may give u an unexpected result in the end?? =]

    hope it helps...

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  17. Hi,
    Just move on with your life. Dont waste your time with loser who need you more than you need them.

    Life isnt a fairy tale.

    You will kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince. Unfortunately some of these will turn out to be real toads.
    Move on and forward, relax, recharge and enjoy life.
    You take care.

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  18. Hello Holly Jean, you're looking great despite the break-up and I sincerely believe that you're really much stronger than you think you are with regards to those moments that will set your heart back a little. Take care! ;]

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