Most of you have heard through Twitter already.
Mark and I split last night. No, it wasn't a big fight, no one did anything wrong (like cheat or something)... but especially over the last month, things were just not working out. Differences which were probably around since day 1... just became less tolerable I guess.
We don't hate each other.
But I'm very very sad.
Ok, can't say more right now. I don't want to start crying again.
Had a rough night. Gathered all my stuff and slept at my friend John's house. Yeah, those of you who have been reading long enough would find John familiar, he's someone I've known since I was about 18 (just a baby). We've been friends since.
I had been crying so much that I could not get to sleep. My nose was blocked, and because I already had a sore throat from the day before, breathing through my mouth was very uncomfortable. And you know what? He stroked my hair until I fell asleep.
I think I'll be ok. There are people around who care for me.
Thank you for all the calls and SMSs I've been getting. If I've been very short and curt with the replies... it's only because I cannot let my guard down, otherwise I start thinking and feeling depressed.
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I've still got the Vaio video to do... due tomorrow, I don't know how I'm going to churn one out at the state I'm in.
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There were so many things I was looking forward to do with Mark this month.
The Sg blog Awards at the supper club on the 16th.
Malaysian Airlines has approached me to be an SG blogger for them so that involves free trips to anywhere in M'sia. (Having lunch this Sunday with them)
And then there is my birthday.
Right now none of that seem to matter. I can't help feeling sorry for myself.
Such is life I guess. Such is Life.
Mark and I split last night. No, it wasn't a big fight, no one did anything wrong (like cheat or something)... but especially over the last month, things were just not working out. Differences which were probably around since day 1... just became less tolerable I guess.
We don't hate each other.
But I'm very very sad.
Ok, can't say more right now. I don't want to start crying again.
Had a rough night. Gathered all my stuff and slept at my friend John's house. Yeah, those of you who have been reading long enough would find John familiar, he's someone I've known since I was about 18 (just a baby). We've been friends since.
I had been crying so much that I could not get to sleep. My nose was blocked, and because I already had a sore throat from the day before, breathing through my mouth was very uncomfortable. And you know what? He stroked my hair until I fell asleep.
I think I'll be ok. There are people around who care for me.
Thank you for all the calls and SMSs I've been getting. If I've been very short and curt with the replies... it's only because I cannot let my guard down, otherwise I start thinking and feeling depressed.
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I've still got the Vaio video to do... due tomorrow, I don't know how I'm going to churn one out at the state I'm in.
If you haven't voted for me yet, (I'm trailing behind the leader by some 20 votes at the moment)...
1. You have to log in to your facebook and click Become A Fan here
2. Then you cast your vote by clicking LIKE underneath my photo here.
Also Click LIKE under my review here.
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There were so many things I was looking forward to do with Mark this month.
The Sg blog Awards at the supper club on the 16th.
Malaysian Airlines has approached me to be an SG blogger for them so that involves free trips to anywhere in M'sia. (Having lunch this Sunday with them)
And then there is my birthday.
Right now none of that seem to matter. I can't help feeling sorry for myself.
Such is life I guess. Such is Life.
Comments
miss koala
Take care and hope you feel better soon.
Unfortunately that is how life is sometimes. We make plans and dreams in our head yet things don't seem to go as planned.
Nevertheless it hurts......though (in a very cliched way) it just means sometimes that it wasn't meant to be.
Stay strong :)
Take care. :)
Take care holly, everything takes time (:
Take care
time will heal though
don't think too much about it for now
you take care
*hugs*
It must be really hard and i can only imagine.
You are a strong girl and we are all behind u babe.
Take care!
It takes 2.
Hugs.
im sorry for u~ take ur time ya? things will get better tml.
anything i could help, dont hesitate ya? ;)
All the best holly!
dont feel sorry for urself... lik u said.. its not u nor his fault? think positively..at least try >.< sorry a bad talking i believe i am.. have a good rest for tml's video?
cheer up holly~
p(^0^)q
cheer up girl =)
life always works out. i love your blog and personality. all the best and go with your heart!
I knw all the above wishes & support yr readers gave u will inevitably bring tears to yr eyes.. but u knw wat? U hv all our love & care to go thru tis trying period!!
im sure we all knw how u r feelg, jus cry out! when i broke up wif my ex, i cried 3 wks! It was gd frens who stand by me thru out! so u not only hv great frens BUT u hv some many supportive readers too!!
Brace up & move on! come on, u r young & stil a HOT BABE, i'm sure u will eventually find yr true love one day. say YES!! : )
Hugs!!
I think... take a break, think things through, then talk to him again. No matter what the outcome is, you've done your best and he probably has too.
All the best.
Cyn
do take care ya :)
things are gonna be better soon
In the short term though, it's important to be supportive to people going through a trauma.
But at the end of the day, after the tears are gone, you've got to be honest about what went wrong and why. If you bullshit yourself, with loads of over positive spin, you're only setting yourself up for the next failure.
I still believe Holly did her best in this relationship, unless she comes out and says otherwise. Not that she is expected to clarify on this though. :/
Cyn
im not going to say take care, and don't be sad, coz for sure u will be sad...
just do what u think is right to do now and get over it....
i know u can... trust yourself.:)
Andy
Take care :)
You're not alone! I broke up recently with the guy I had been seeing since Dec last year. (Think we both started new relationships around the same time, yours earlier though.)
And like you, it wasn't anything big or a sudden incident that sparked it off. The little differences we had just added up one day, and we both knew, we weren't going to work.
I was really sad at one point of time, but I've gotten over it. There's really no sense in forcing the issue, and I think I'm too awesome anyway to waste on somebody who can't see that.
I hope you get to feeling better soon, it'll take some time, but have faith in yourself and in God, and know you're meant for better things. *hugs*
When a relationship fails, i agreed both parties are responsible (in a way). These days, love is complex and others wont know what one is going through..
I was strucked and in fact i was in tears when i read yr line: "There were so many things I was looking forward to do with him...and yes it get worse when the memories keep coming back..Right now none of that seem to matter ANYMORE..and how true it is but pls dun feel sorry for yrself. Everything in liFe happens for a reason.. sometimes when things dun work out, we have to think positively that we knew it was coming and not regretting at later stage of our lives.
I hope the mini comfort u can find is that at least both of u are not officially engaged yet and able to let go of everything.. there are some like me unfortunately who (in order not to disappoint their families, friends, loved ones) continue to keep up the pretendence until everything else is settled and it's really painful to have to go thru' it.. i wont say hope u are ok coz how can u really be ok when everything else may seem falling apart but i believe in this timeless saying "Time can heal even the most deepest wound but if not, keep the rest in your gd memories"
Giving Up Doesn't Mean You Are Weak, Sometimes It Means That You Are Strong Enough To Let Go...
Cyn
you don't miss a trick, do u
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Best wishes from Italy!
Now I stand a chance!
but anyways- what business is it of yours to know how much of the rent I paid? Or if I contributed "financial" (??) ?
Apart from blog, I write a column for myfatpocket and I teach part time. Of course I'm not going to say where as I know there'll be daggers coming at me from people who have nothing better to do. (Glad to be rid of MOE though.)
And if it's what I desire.. I'll aim for the moon if I want.. I don't need you to tell me to know my limits. Who died and made you God?