
Mark is back from Phuket, but we decided against meeting up today.
The Blog Awards is coming up on Wednesday. (Exactly 2 weeks after the break up). And it should be a happy exciting time for me. But I'm really sad. I always go to events with Mark. But now that we're no longer a couple, I got to learn to let go. Grow. Adapt to new routines. It's hard, I'm resistant. And I loved my old routines so much.
I'm even fighting the urge to ring my friends to ask if I can come over and cook for them. I miss my kitchen.
But I think all that is just auxilliary to the fact that I miss Mark.
I'm going to the Blog Awards with John. But somehow, I feel like a charity case. Like he's only doing it out of pity because he doesn't want me to feel alone :( And he's been a great source of support and strength, especially just after the break up. It's confusing. I got to stop feeling sorry for myself, otherwise I won't be able to move on and enjoy all these great moments in my life.
HJ
On a Happy note - my best friend F is back down in SG! For a week. Watched a movie last night. Can't wait to spend more time with her. (a bit sore about the fact that she's a MRS now and I got to start ALL OVER AGAIN though)

and last thing- only 6 gstrings left in my CherryPop Shop stock. Do grab it while you can. Not sure what I'll source for next! :)
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