My seasoned blog readers who have been with A Thing(or Two) About Holly Jean from the beginning would know who Skye is.
But for the benefit of my newer readers, Skye is my ex-boyfriend. Nope... not one of the many men I've dated in this past year. But a serious long term relationship. It ended rather suddenly, no cheating or big fight, but just a major change in life's circumstances which caused us to split. I call it the worst break up of my life! I was utterly lost without him, he was someone I was going to marry, someone I lived with and loved. And the night we split, I cried so incredibly hard into my pillow (with him sleeping right beside me) that I burst blood vessels around my eye area.
I cannot elaborate further, any explanation here on my part would make it seem as if I were pushing the blame on to him. So let's just leave it at that.
Yesterday, I was in town after a shoot, and I was supposed to meet a friend for drinks, but he had a fever. Long story short, I rang Skye to see if he were free for a cake and coffee. We hadn't met in the flesh since we split up.
Picture: Skye and I at Wheelock. Nothing's changed, we both look the same as before. I had yummy cake called the G-spot. While he had some crappy tasting one... (he's always the unlucky one when it comes to cake choice and ice cream too for that matter)
He was at paragon shopping. When we walked past some expensive jewellery store ( I can't remember the name.. because I'm not brand savvy ok...) and I jokingly pointed to a HUGE and blinding heart shaped choker with like a shit load of sparkly diamonds and... I said "Buy Me?"
Which is just me joking around. (I am not some material girl expecting boys to buy her stuff ok!) The freaking thing was probably like 10 thousand bucks, anyway!
And then he said - "Yeah, if this were a year ago.. I would."
And I replied- "What are you talking about?! A year ago, we had already split up!"
[And actually thinking... yeah right... as if you would have bought that for me a year ago... REMEMBER THE SCRAP BOOK?????]
And it was then that it struck us... October 14 was the exact date of our break up, exactly 1 year ago.
How uncanny!
It was really nice to see him again. It's been one long and mostly lonely year for me. But for those who think that this is going to lead to some sort of rekindling of old flames. Sorry. It's not. When I made my mind up many many many months ago to put the pain behind and move on... I did just that.
Don't get me wrong. There's no hatred or resentment here. Just acceptance and realisation that that relationship is not what I want anymore.
But for the benefit of my newer readers, Skye is my ex-boyfriend. Nope... not one of the many men I've dated in this past year. But a serious long term relationship. It ended rather suddenly, no cheating or big fight, but just a major change in life's circumstances which caused us to split. I call it the worst break up of my life! I was utterly lost without him, he was someone I was going to marry, someone I lived with and loved. And the night we split, I cried so incredibly hard into my pillow (with him sleeping right beside me) that I burst blood vessels around my eye area.
I cannot elaborate further, any explanation here on my part would make it seem as if I were pushing the blame on to him. So let's just leave it at that.
Yesterday, I was in town after a shoot, and I was supposed to meet a friend for drinks, but he had a fever. Long story short, I rang Skye to see if he were free for a cake and coffee. We hadn't met in the flesh since we split up.
Picture: Skye and I at Wheelock. Nothing's changed, we both look the same as before. I had yummy cake called the G-spot. While he had some crappy tasting one... (he's always the unlucky one when it comes to cake choice and ice cream too for that matter) Which is just me joking around. (I am not some material girl expecting boys to buy her stuff ok!) The freaking thing was probably like 10 thousand bucks, anyway!And then he said - "Yeah, if this were a year ago.. I would."
And I replied- "What are you talking about?! A year ago, we had already split up!"
[And actually thinking... yeah right... as if you would have bought that for me a year ago... REMEMBER THE SCRAP BOOK?????]
And it was then that it struck us... October 14 was the exact date of our break up, exactly 1 year ago.
How uncanny!
It was really nice to see him again. It's been one long and mostly lonely year for me. But for those who think that this is going to lead to some sort of rekindling of old flames. Sorry. It's not. When I made my mind up many many many months ago to put the pain behind and move on... I did just that.
Don't get me wrong. There's no hatred or resentment here. Just acceptance and realisation that that relationship is not what I want anymore.
Comments
Jolene- yes! i was supposed to meet a new date but he pushed it to the weekend. not sure if he's potential or not yet... have not had the chance to really know him.
anonymous 11:54, sorry but you're wrong. I do still care for my ex. But nope, no desire to get back with him. Haven't u noticed something abt me?? I don't pine after things! I'm a very full on, proactive person when it comes to r'ships...I'd just go out there and get it (or try) if I wanted it...
:)
Dun get me wrong,I think you're one of the hottest bloggers on the face of the earth. Just that you seem to attract lousy stupid men. You deserve so much better!
hmm... well.. I don't think I attract lousy men.. I actually date a whole array of really great guys. I don't go out with the sleazy- just -for-fucks-kind. I'm looking to settle down with just one. So I've really got to be particular, hence it's taking me a long time to get the perfect one. Marriage is for life, I should not rush tht and go for the first can-do guy.
i don't dress sleazy do I ?:s shorts and tank tops are my staple clothes here in Sg, very comfortable. Most other time, I'm in baby doll smock or sun dresses.. hardly SEXY in the brute sense of the word.
But thank you for your concern.
On another note, this was a very honest and real post - which is why I'm into your blog. Way to go, girl. :)
Dee
Yes, let's all go around in habits, waving crosses and all - now that'd attract hoardes of men.
Maybe i exaggerate. But whoever wrote that is living in the era of anti-feminist ideals where women are still judged by conformolist notions of what they wear and not who they are.
If that was from a male, I wouldn't be surprised. If it was from a female, boo i say - shame on you.
Dee
I also had the same experiences and yet i still managed to be friends with my ex :)
sometimes people may wonder how come we still could be friends with our ex, but i think if we're truly could forgive and forget, we could rite?
i love reading your blog, and i think you are who you are so don't mind that who wrote to tell you to dress less sexy :D
I mean this as a compliment, cos I am not a lecher but a straight female. :D